Thanksgiving

Today is Thanksgiving and I have so much to be thankful for.  I have a wonderful husband and incredible son.  I have a large family and for all their faults, I love them all very much.  We have a comfortable house and always have enough to eat.  We have enough money to pay for our needs and even some left over to pay for some wants.

However, with all that, I wish I had one more thing.  The one thing I wish I had more than anything else.  I wish I had good health.  There are so many things I would trade for good health, but it isn't the kind of thing that can be bought or bargained for.  Some people can improve their health by changing their lifestyle but that won't cure me.

I tapered on my Entocort on Monday.  I could feel it by Tuesday and by today I am miserable.  I had a lot of fun with my family, and we ate good food, but I was in the bathroom 6 times in the 6 hours we were at my mother's place.  The toilet paper was like sandpaper on my hemorrhoids, so on top of the horrible pain and D, I have inflamed hemorrhoids, too.  When we got home, I took some pain pills, and I can feel them effecting my thinking.  Once my son goes to sleep, I might try to take a sitz bath, as that helps some with the hemorrhoids.  Even though I hate taking a bath it is one thing I do that works.

Yesterday was special person day at my son's school, and besides my husband and myself, his special people were my mother and my brother in law and niece.  He loved getting to show them off to his friends and teachers.  I feel very blessed for his school, as it is such a great learning environment for him, and it is a great community for our entire family.  In fact, Tuesday night, we had a mom's night out.  In the end, only 6 of us could make it, but we talked and laughed and shared until close to 11:00.  It helps sometimes, even when I feel miserable, to socialize like that.

Monday I had a phone conference with my long term disability case manager.  I hope they approve me, as I think going back to work will just result in me having to go out on disability again, and in the meantime, it would be that much harder on me.  I honestly believe if I go back to work, I will probably end up back in the hospital, as the stress of working, and the inability to take it easy when I need to will lead to my Crohn's getting even worse than it is now, and that is saying something.

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and realizes how truly blessed we are.