September 11

It has been 10 years since then, and I still remember it like yesterday.  Only back then, I was healthy and in remission.  Now I am sick.

Yesterday was a very busy day for me, and I am paying for it now.  My husband went to Wisconsin to visit his mom & older brother, as they would only be an hour away.  So I was home with my son.  I hadn't slept well the night before, since my son was in the bed with me, so I was already tired.  We played some games, then we went to Costco.  I got there, and realized I didn't have my card.  Ugh!  So we come home, and my son really wanted to go to Costco (because he likes the samples) so we went back.  I bought the stuff we needed, and came home.  By then, my husband was home.  I had promised my son I'd take him swimming, but I was not up for it!  So we went to the pool, my husband refusing to swim.  My son saw a former classmate at the pool, and it was great for him to have a playmate.  He was so excited to be able to go in the deep water with his friend, as it was only this summer that he passed the deep water test.  We stayed there for about 40 minutes, but I could barely move by the time we left.

When we got home, I was going to rest, but I smelled the chlorine on me, so I showered.  My husband & I were going on a date to celebrate my birthday early.  My mom came over, and even though I was tired, I went out.  We went to Outback, since I wanted steak.  I ate more food last night than I'd eaten probably in an entire day last week.  I just don't really eat much any more because of the consequences.  Anyway, even before we left the restaurant, it was causing problems.  I had such D there!  Then we went to Barnes & Nobel to browse.  I had more D and was actually in pain for a while.  We bought some books for our son and the first 4 books in the Game of Thrones series.

Today I've had butt pee all day.  I'm also very irritable and I don't know why.  I am exhausted, but have tried to sleep twice, and was unable.  I also have really bad abdominal pain, unrelated to the D.  I took pain pills, but they haven't helped much.